NEVER GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAMS!

"For the vision is yet for an appointed time, but at the end it shall speak, and not lie: though it tarry, wait for it; because it will surely come, it will not tarry." Habakkuk 2:3(KJV)

Men Cry Too...Even If It Is Silently!

       


        I remember growing up in a single parent home. I was the first boy to be birthed into our family so I was a bit spoiled from both my mother & my father's side of the family.  Now I know a lot of people have these stereotypes about single parents and the kids that come from them. Well you see my mother graduated from high school at 16 and then graduated with from college with her Bachelors in Education at 19. That is when she had me! It wouldn't be long after that though that my father would leave me. Did he die? No, he just left.

      That moment crushed me even though I was just between 2 & 4 years of age. I couldn't understand why this man that made these vows to my mother and assisted in creating me no longer wanted me. Needless to say that wouldn't be the only moment in history that I suffered hurt & pain.

     I also remember a time when I was at my babysitter's house in Tremont Park and I was exposed to so much stuff. I was exposed to scary movies, sexual movies, and homosexual molestation.

     I remember being about 6 or 7 at the time and my babysitters brother molesting me repeatedly. I was confused. I was angry! But most of all I was traumatized and afraid! I remember him having this HUGE dog that he would allow to charge at me enough to only get in my face but never bite me. That was his way of keeping me quiet!

  As I grew older there would be many things that I didn't understand as a little boy transitioning into a young man! I never played catch or football. I grew up kind of quick. My molestation caused me to prematurely experience sexual acts with females at a young age and to not trust the men in my life because I wasn't sure if they would either leave me eventually or they would desire to do sexual things to me.

   For years I tried to cover the hurt, the shame, & guilt from being molested while longing to fill the void of trying to find a father figure/mentor to help guide me in manhood. I can even recall certain pastors whose congregations I was apart of having a hidden hatred for me because either they assumed that I was trying to take over or they just didn't like me for reason I will never know. I remember knowing that God called me to minister to young people & singing and the pastor put me in a position that was completely against what God had called me to do! Side note: I am not putting anyone on blast, and I am going somewhere with this trust me. Let me please just finish telling MY story. There would be times when I really needed someone to talk to and NO ONE would be available until after I fell into sin! Then I didn't have to look for anyone, they all just APPEARED to say, "why didn't you come to me before this happened?"

   To bring this all in. I have been crying since I was four years of age and even this very day I find myself crying. But Everyone looks at me as having it all together, when there is just this little boy inside him crying asking the question, "Daddy why did you leave me? " Was I not good enough?" What made you decide to start another family and take care of your other kids & leave me to fend for myself?" Why did you leave me unprotected?" " Why didn't you shield me from being hurt?" " You left me dad, and when you did, it was open season for the enemy to reign in my life?"

     Dad, one thing I do want you to know though, is that I love you & I forgive you! Now I just have to learn how to forgive myself!

  Maybe some of you are, or know of men who are, hurting and crying silently. Maybe you have been holding on to something that you were just either afraid or to ashamed to let go! I want you to know that I know just how you feel! I have done some things in the dark that have come out into the light! I too have learned and been taught some bad habits in my past. Even today I am reaping a harvest from seeds that have been sown in my yester years. I want to encourage you know that God knows everything that you are going through and that He cares! No longer do you have to hide your silent cries because He knows! Continue to trust in Him and ask Him to show you how to love Him & forgive others, as well as yourself! I love you all and have a phenomenal day!

Oh also when you get a chance check out these videos as well. they will bless you!


The Father's Love
http://sermon.net/SonRiseChurchandMinistries/sermonid/1199850063

Rejection
http://sermon.net/SonRiseChurchandMinistries/sermonid/119962614

Trauma Pt 1
http://sermon.net/SonRiseChurchandMinistries/sermonid/1199831873

Trauma Pt 2
http://sermon.net/SonRiseChurchandMinistries/sermonid/1199838451

October 21, 2012 Encouragement

When God has put a dream in your heart, DO NOT let anyone talk you out of it!

-Joel Osteen

October 16, 2012 Quote of the day

Don’t waste today regretting yesterday! Instead use it to make memories for tomorrow.–Anonymous & Stancil M. Brown

I Thought You Might Need This Today!

God is so awesome and speaks to us in so many ways, so When I was sent this smile from Him I thought I would send it your way. Have a blessed rest of the day:

            A simple scripture we all know says that for God so love the world that He Gave! Well let’s put your name in this Blank. For God so loved _____________That He gave! And today I believe He wanted to give you a smile to let you know that He sees you and that He knows how your day is going so far, “Continue to trust in me”, He says and He will guide you through the rest of the day! I love you all And remember that this is the day that the Lord has made so Let Us( this is a choice that you have to make for yourself) rejoice and be glad in it!

Love You & Have A Phenomenal Day On Purpose! 

Will The Real You Come Forth!

      The one skill in my life that I hate that I learned was how to act! It taught me how to recreate myself. It taught me how to conform to a role. It taught me how to make a fantasy more of a reality than life itself. 

      One good thing acting has taught me. It taught how to determine who is real and who is not. It helped me to see people for who they really are.

      Yeah, I have entertained Manipulation while praising the Lord with Deception & Lies. They sat right in the same row I did at church. I even dated lust & flirted with temptation. But wait Youre a man of God? But which God are you serving? Are you serving your flesh as you have been scared from the molestation & rage that has surrounded you your entire life? Are you serving money as you race and prey on everyone you come in contact because you are trying to reach a goal that another is telling you that you need to reach?

      Maybe you're high of your own bitterness as you lay up with regret & self hatred because you've gotten so use to being rejected that you are tired of being envious & jealous so you except the fact that people will never get to know the real you. And then the director yells CUT! Okay that is wrap! Great job everybody. Get some rest because we have a long day tomorrow... The only problem is you cant tell if you were acting or just reliving a moment.

        And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God. -Romans 12:2(KJV)

      Do you know that God loves the you that HE created? You do know have to hide who He created you to be. He knows just who you are! He has always known.

      Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations.-Jeremiah 1:5(KJV)

      Okay maybe that version was too deep. Here's a simpler way of saying it:

     Before I formed you in the womb I knew [and] approved of you [as My chosen instrument], and before you were born I separated and set you apart, consecrating you; [and] I appointed you as a prophet to the nations. -Jeremiah 1:5(AMP)

      WOW! God not only knew you but He approved of you and set you apart on purpose for a far greater purpose! I don't know about you but a praise would go...here! Don't be afraid of who God has created & called you to be! You were never designed to fight the battle with Sauls armor on David! God has unique designed your plan of action  in order for you to successfully complete your mission. And trust me, no one assignment is greater than the other for we are all One Body  with Many Different Parts! If the knee wasn't comfortable with being the knee then the feet, calf muscles, & toes would remain stagnate. In order for there to be forward motion in the body, everyone has to function as they were created to function not how someone else believes you should function! 

       I want you to do me a favor. When ever you get a chance I want you to look in the mirror and say, "I LOVE THE ME THAT YOU CREATED GOD", "I AM PRETTY AWESOME"! Because you are truly made in His image! I love you all! Have a PHENOMENAL DAY!

October 9, 2012 Encouragement

Your present circumstances don't determine where you can go; they merely determine where you start. -Nido Qubein

What Are You Aiming For?

October 3, 2012 Encouragement!

Maximize your day by minimizing your distractions. No one can seize the day until they first seize their time.

–Pastor Anthony Glover

Whose Truth Are You Going To Believe?

Hello,
   
     Today I find myself a bit torn as I wasted to talk about Ishmael & Isaac! The difference between a man made thing birth from not being patience verses a God sent promise. However, I believe the Lord is sending me in a different direction. 

     How many of you believe God's word to be true? Okay, how many of you allow for God's word to be the final say so in your life? For example, the doctor may say that you're dying from cancer & has the facts to back it up. But God's truth says in Isaiah 53:5(KJV), "But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed". He also states in 3 John 1:2(KJV),"Beloved, I wish above all things that thou mayest prosper and be in health, even as thy soul prospereth".

     We have to learn how to settle our lives on the fact that God's word is Truth! God's word is life! And God's word should be the finally say so in lives whether you are dealing with your finances, your family, your career, or whatever. The facts may be screaming loud about every situation in your life and you may be feeling a bit overwhelm but I challenge you to see what God' word, God's truth, says about your situation and then let that be the final say so in whatever you are going through! I love you all and have a prosperous day!

   

Stop Fighting!

Some days you may blow it out the box and others you may really do horrible, nevertheless, you tried your best and that is all you can do! There is no I in team therefore there is no need to compete with the people who have been placed in your life to help you succeed and reach your full potential. Don’t fight the transition, embrace the change!

–Stancil M. Brown